I feel like crying

I feel like crying
And today lets indulge in it
Lets not stop the tears to flow
Or reason with the sadness trying to grow

Let the tears roll down
Let me hear my wail
It may not be happy
But then who needs to care

I want to cry
Cause somewhere my heart is aching
Its aching so much
And it better get relived with all the crying

I dont want to bear the pain
But the pain is not willing to leave
I try and try and try to let it go
Seeking joy in things that dont show

But it does not work it does not halt
It comes back and back and i am tired a lot
I want to stop, but i just cant today
it wont let go, let go of me today

Maybe it will release,
it will release the pressure
Maybe then i'll be light
and be free of the matter.

Why is it that i was able to share my sadness only when i was happy.