An old memory. Or maybe not.

Realization!!

Life as we know it is about to come to an end and we can do nothing about it!!

No. I have not copied it from the tag line of some not so famous movie. And neither have I copied it from some heartfelt sleazy novel. This is coming straight from my heart. But come to think of it, I may have heard it somewhere. Nonetheless, the context in which I am using this is nothing like the context in which it was used before. Or at least I don’t think so.

I recently realized, with the help to my friends, that this is the best time of my life. No responsibility and financial independence/competence. The ability to take a weekend away from family, to be with friends, to not be bothered if my extended family knows that I am in their town and am not spending time with them, to be able to come to office and work and go back and not bother about food and sleeping arrangements, to be able to spend the money the way I want and not be answerable to anyone, to be able to pamper myself in any manner I want and with anything I want. This is the golden (if that’s your thing, mine personally would be platinum) time of my life. But as I am a dim-wit, I realized it too late. As soon as I realized the magnanimity and enormity of this period, the golden time started to dwindle. How is not so very complicated to guess. Well the reason that its no responsibility, which is half of the contributing factor to this golden time, is about to be taken away from me. Simply, I have been put up next in line for marriage on the market. The marriage market I mean. So there I am, revering in the exalted glory of this golden time and BHAM comes the kicker, “Aakhi your bio data is not at all satisfactory. Today once you come back from office, we will sit and correct it. No wonder there were no offers coming. Humph.”  Agrh!! What just happen? There I was doing my morning ritual of yoga and suddenly I have to sit and correct my bio data. Well to be honest, this is not the first time this has happened. No, I am not talking about the golden time; that is a first timer for me. But rather, about the bio-data amendment scenario, which has taken place a couple of times earlier also. But somehow, this time, when I have recently come to the realization that I am in my best of periods in human life, this, albeit small thing, is going to just gnaw its way up and spread and take over the entire period of brilliance and shine.

Well too many adjectives I have used in glorifying the ‘golden era’. But the thing is life is very subtle. It changes in such ways that you never know what to catch on to and what not to. It is subtle in showing the path and the players and one day you get up and realize that how much change has come. I experienced the unpredictable nature of life when I was sitting with Naina. I realized that she is so right about this being the best time of our life. It struck me in my face that I was living in it for such a long time and did not even realize what it was and how good it was. Instead I was fretting about the future (as if something is new there!!). But now, when I realize this, I think (although I have been asked not to think / analyze too much) that since nothing is certain or constant in this life, maybe very few precious time is left of this golden time. And well I hope that this realization will continue with me for some time to come. Just so that I can at least, uninhibitedly, I can enjoy the remainder of this golden aka platinum era.

August 18, 2011 @ 11.32 AM; Delhi

I found this above piece somewhere in my old files. Its strange how I can still relate to this, completely. Eh, so much for impending doom-like change.