Conflict - Part 1

What is the first thing do you think when you get up?

First thing – its time to get up already? But I think its more of a shock of waking up than anything else and so shouldn’t count as the first thing. So the essential first thing that I think about as soon as I get up is, who all have texted me while I was asleep. I always wake up with hope that someone would have messaged me in the night, would have missed me in those hours when I was blissfully (hopefully) asleep, in those precious hours when I am lost to the world at large and at that moment of time, someone thought of me enough to message me to tell me that. No, the message is not supposed to say, ‘I miss you’, the fact that the message came is enough for me to know.

So that’s what I think first thing every morning. What does one deduce from that? Simple, I want for someone to miss me. Maybe when someone misses me is when they will want to be with me. Yet, that hasn’t happened. Till date, no one messages me in those hours for me to know in the morning that I am being missed. So, it comes down to that I need someone who misses me in the wee hours of my sleep time. Sigh. Not as simple as it sounds. Because this then gets followed up by my desire to be cuddled, to be hugged, to be touched. And of course that leads to me dreaming of nights.

So the first thing I think in the morning is about getting one of those pregnancy-large size pillow.