Gloom

Inspire my children.

To start of, this is in respect of the children that I sponsor on Worldvision.

Secondly, I am on my all time low. I don’t think I have any ability right now to inspire anyone.

In the last few days, well what am I saying, not in the last few days, just yesterday, I realized that I have nothing to show for the last 11 years of my life. I do have a bank balance, but it is as hefty as it is because of the fact that I live with my parents, or at my parents house. Had that comfort not been with me, I would have spent all of my savings in the rent and other sundry expenses of running a full household.

So, yes I have a privilege. The privilege of being the daughter of a father who earned money and who was able to bring me up with adequate education and a good sturdy spoon, albeit not silver.

And today, my privilege is gone, or appears to have dwindled away. And that has brought the whole burden on my shoulder and the spoon has disappeared and the education has become nugatory. And I am at my all time low.

Low.

So, no, no inspiration to impart to my children today.

I do have a load of tears to unload, care for some?