i miss you

Ha! I thought spending three days with him would be sufficient
And of course they were
And yet, here I am, back to penning my thoughts on paper
And you know what that means
That means that I am confused
Muddled
Lost
Unhinged
And whatnot
 
Of course three days is not enough
We go back to basics, as that one client (JD) keeps telling me
We wanted to spend every minute with each other
So three days, while feels a lot when its been 20 days since we have seen each other
But, post those three days, is nothing but a blink of an eye
Okay maybe not blink.
It was lots of minutes
Filled with hugs and kisses
and holding hands and conversations
and eating food and sitting next to each other
and some discomfort too
that meant more for simply existing
 
but to think that three days would be enough is a lie
 
back to basics, I want to spend time with him
he is not trying to make me better
like my parents do
he is not sharing my growing up years and my experiences
like my sister and friends do
he is not working with me to reach a purpose in life
like my colleagues and I do
he is not like the cars and people I see on the road
all going someplace and spending few second of collision with each other
he is not the books that is spend time with
and get lost in
he is not like the drinks I enjoy
to lull my mind into calmness
he is not the places I want to go to
to get away from everyone else
 
he is the person I want to go to and to stay with
he is an extension of me
and he makes me feel like an extension of him
 
am I losing myself in him?